Yes.  I can do this.  I can, I can, I can.  Marik believes in me, so I have to believe in me.  I've done all of this material before; I know it.  I just flip out when I see it on paper.  I now know that the new way to help myself get through these times is to act like it's regular work.  Act like it's nothing different than answering questions in class. 

  Kaiba and Marik, my two major insiprations.  Kaiba has inspired me to follow my dreams; to build an empire and become the best.  Marik has inspired me to believe in myself, and to reach my full potential, and to never, ever give up.  I suppose the only way to get over this is to become 'tough.'  That's right, no more crying in the middle of the night when I'm worried about passing a test.  I can do it, I know I can.  I just have to believe.  I suppose I'm not as strong as I thought I was, but I'm making process.  I won't quit until this is over, and in my opinion, it will never be.  I can do this, and I can be tough, and I can live up to the legacy that Seto left me to fulfill.

  Oh, and I don't appreciate crap comments on my messageboard.  It's going away now, thanks for ruining it anonymous.    And, no, I'm not 'jared.' 

  Heh.  Fools.

  I apologize for not updating in the past day or so.  I have no had the time, energy, or will to do so.  I believe that I am sinking slower into my Kaiba resistance clan, because everything has come clear.  I seek this computer as not a means to ruin myself, but as a sanctuary.  It has always been so, since I started playing HL three years ago.  I simply ruined myself.  But, what can I do?  I love Marik so much, and my only means of seeing him is the television and the computer, and both take up time.  Goodness, I wish I had some way of having Yu-Gi-Oh shows whenever I wanted them.

  I hate acting so weak, when really, I am so very strong.  I am trapped in this shit hole where I don't want to be, and am trying to get out - just like Marik.  We have so many things in common.

  I always invisioned myself as a strong, powerful being, one which people eyed with jealousy.  I will become that person.  I just need more time.  If only I had more time....

  Good damet.  Please excuse my outrage...

  F***N people.    They drive me mad.    FOOLS.  All of them.  Someday, someday...  

  Not in a good mood.  I'm stessed, tired, and aggrivated.

  I shall never have the problem I had today happen again.  NO, NEVER.

  *yawns*  I'm so tired.    I woke up this morning and felt like I wanted to bite of someones head off.  No, not literally.    Goodness, I've never felt like that before.  My throat was bothering me, too.   

  Ancora nell'amore con il mio caro Marik. È il mio hero.  *hugs* Amo Marik così tanto. È stato sempre là quando nessun altro ha... 

  Yeah, anyway.  I don't have anything else to update on...

  Gee wiz.  People just ain't no good.  Wow.  There are some I can put up with, and others that I just can't.    Argh.

   *major sigh*  Bah, oh well.  Who needs 'em?  Not me.  ^_^  Hehe, Marik looks lovely on my page...*huggles*  I need him more than ever now.  I mean, without him, I'd be a mess half of the time. 

  Meh.  Truth be told, I was so happy a few minutes ago.  Then, I got online, and I was like BLAH.  Everything's just BLAH.  I hate the internet for what it did to me.  It corrupted my sole...and now I have to study, and I don't want to.  I know that deep down I do want to study.    I just hope that my good sense kicks in before tomorrow morning.  But, hey, if I can't study for myself, I can study for Marik.    Yep, he'd be proud.

  Time for some colorful smilies!        Yes, these are great. 

  Meh...will update more later.  I still feel BLAHish.

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   It's decided.  I feel a new inspiration here...and I feel so good about myself.  Bah, I've become stronger, and I love it.  I realized, two seconds after updating, that I don't need them.  I don't, don't, don't need anyone but myself.    Yes, it's the truth. 

  Tehehe.  Marik ish my hero, and my sock rocker!  YEAH!  Man, I'm happy now.    'Cause you give me a good vibe, don't you know baby...

 Muhaha.  Marik has the power of his heart, which helped him to stay alive in the battle where he could have been passed into the shadow realm.  What would I have done then?  I love him so much.  You have no idea.  But, no, it's not like the 'in love' type of love.  It's the 'thank you' type of love.  I mean, Marik has been my inspiration through thick and thin.  Whenever I do something that I don't think I can do, I say: do it for Marik.  Pretty soon, though, it's not going to be do it for Marik, it's going to be do it for yourself, Althea.  You are the best, and you know it.  No one else can take you away from yourself, or seperate you from the Marik whom you love so dearly.  If he's there for you, and you are there for yourself, and you have your family behind you, how can you doubt yourself?  Believe in you.  Believe in yourself, and watch yourself reign power.  Soon, it will be time to travel to Egypt, where you can begin living.  It might be hard at first, but afterwards, you'll feel better about it.  Just work at graduating at the top of your class, and don't forget anything that you've typed here.  Believe, Althea, believe.  Believe....

It seems that, really, I perfer being along over being around friends. Not to brag, but, I'm a strong person. I don't break down easily, unless it comes to school work. But, the point of this message was to say that I thought I would be lonely without my friends. In the long run, I feel much better when I'm alone. Interesting, no?

Will update more later.

Yep, it's decided.  I'm going to Egypt when I get the chance...

Eh, don't worry.  I'm not usually this 'depressed.'  I'm actually quite a happy person, until I put my Seto Kaiba act on, which is so much fun, because people don't want to be around you anymore.   Hehe.  Except those exceptional few, who you have to raise and eyebrow at. 

Bad girl, talking 'bout the sad girl...bad girl, talking 'bout bad bad girls yeah...

Anyway, I've had a ton of visitors view my site lately.  It's kind of freaky.  Yesturday, 50+ people had viewed my page!  *hides behind couch*  Ahhh! 

 It's Tuesday.  Meh.  Wish it was Friday.  Ah, oh well.  

Tell me, why am I obsessed with disco music all of a sudden?  Ever since I heard that one song by Donna Summer, I've been back in the age of Disco Music.  But, I could never hate it.  I've always loved disco music...and I don't think that'll change.   

I love every type of music, I swear.  Disco, funk, dance, rock, pop, country, rap, Japanese, classical, the list goes on.  The only types I don't like are metal and heavy metal.    That stuff gives me a headache, and I think that's the basic intent of all those bands.  They're all out to get people.

 Maaaaan, I need some more Yu-Gi-Oh graphic novels.  I bought four, and finished them in an hour.    I definatly need the next three. 

So many smilies!  *runs behind couch*  Man, I'm happy today...

Alright, I think that'll end my rant for today.  Tata everyone.  < Go Patrick! 

  Well, I have retured to, once again, ranting in my journal.  Gotta love this thing.   Anyway, Yu-Gi-Oh's on today.  YAY!  I can't wait to watch my favorite show in the world.    But, yeah, I feel so childish typing like this...but, hey, people have to rant somewhere, don't we?  Especially people like me....

This is a pointless update, really.  Well, actually, I suppose it does have one purpose - to keep me off DUHS.   That was my reaction, too, when I actually came here instead of DUHS.  Thank the Lord, though. 

Yeah, anyway...gotta go print some pictures of Seto.      Tata everyone.

  I have returned.  It's been such a long time.  Time has changed me, and the way I am to look at things in the world. 

I am now Seto Kaiba; arrogant and cruel, but I still have my genuine heart of gold.  I need to rant now, so please excuse the childish exclaims...

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  Hello everyone.   I'm back and proud to be.  *sigh*    I feel as if I've changed so much in the last several months since I've updated last.  Maybe in a good way, maybe in a bad way.  I'm much more ambitious and cold now, drawing away from my 'friends' at school.  I don't care about them much anymore - they've become a shadow in my mind.

I'm more of a family person now.  I've started taking breaks from playing all of my addicting SIM games, and I've started helping my parents out.  It's a great satisfaction to know that they trust me to take care of things again - which was not something they did when I was on the computer the whole time. 

One of my only true friends, Echo, is probably going to sleep over for my birthday.  Thank goodness.  I really don't want safetyblu to sleep over.  I'm getting sick of her.  She's just so...different now.  I wish she would move away...    She brags about everything she used to have, and everything that she's going to have now.  I just wish that she would leave.  I'd never have to put up with it again...never....

I might be going to Egypt soon, which I am looking forward to.    I love Egypt.  I can't help but feel that I'd love it there, among everything I've loved since I was a child.  *sigh*  To be one who lives in Egypt would be one to live on cloud 9.

I just love life sometimes.     It can be so grand, especially when everything you work for pays off.  With Yu-Gi-Oh by my side, I don't need anyone except my family.  What a lovely feeling it is...

Yes, I'm declaring myself in love with Seto Kaiba.  He's so gorgeous, and I love his personality.  I would love to be a famous company owner like he is.  I hope that, someday, I will be.

Bad girl, sad girl, I'm such a naughty bad girl...Oh yeah, baby.  God unleashed me to the world...and now, theres no stopping me.

I love you, God in heaven.  You are my savior...and I believe in you, and myself.  Thank you for everything....  

I know I haven't updated in a long time, but, I have exiciting news!  I might be moving to my friends house (when they move) to go to a school that I really want to go to.  Isn't that great?  And I'm working on getting into shape which should happen soon...!